What It Is Like Being Friends With An Angel

I'm sure many of you have heard this story by now, so for those who have I apologize for the repetiveness. But for those of you who have not, I hope you find this story at least half as amazing as I did.

I never have had to dealt with the death of anyone as close to me as Megan. So, I hear that there are steps to grieving and such, but I couldn't tell you if I am following them in the natural progression. All I know is this has created emotions I didn't know existed, and I struggle to find ways to justify them.

As for coping, I can speak for Jenny too, and say that we are perpetually looking for "signs." There have been countless things that have occurred, some small, some much larger, but in any case, we take them as a sign that Megan is here somehow. She is watching us, and she is protecting us. And, well, she still enjoys being a "harmless prankster."

My latest Megan story is really, in my mind, inexplicable. You, however, can make that decision for yourself.

A few weeks before Megan died she took a picture on her phone of a picture of us at her six-year-old birthday party. She sent it to me along with the message "Check out these two hot kids. This pic was taken approximately 12 years ago, look familiar? ;-)" It is an adorable picture, so naturally I made it the background of my phone.

After she died, I kept the picture on my phone. I especially did not want to take it off now. I leave things everywhere intentionally to remind me of her, and I suppose leaving the picture as the background was for the same purpose.

Lately, however, I have been struggling with it more than usual. It probably has something to do with everyone being away at school, coupled with the fact she is absent from my life at Harper when she definitely was not supposed to be. My dad suggested that I put away some of the stuff or take the picture of my phone because maybe the constant reminder was adding to my problems. I disagreed, but decided to appease him anyway just to prove that wasn't the issue, and eventually switched the background to a flower.

Well, not only did I feel weird about the change, someone else did too.

Almost immediately after the switch, my phone started going insane. It would randomly say weird messages, and spontaneously shut off. It would have almost a full battery and it would switch off. I could be texting, talking on the phone, or doing virtually nothing when it decided to turn itself off, almost every 3 minutes. I let this happen for almost two whole days, and it was getting really annoying. One day before school I charged it all the way but by the time I got to school it was already off. I turned it back on, and then it turned off. I was getting really frustrated because it was probably 50 times that I had repeated this process with no luck.

It was then where I decided that I hadn't tried one thing. It was right before class, so I gave one last attempt. I immediately went to my settings and put Megan back on my background.

Needless to say, that solved the problem.
It has not turned off spontaneously since.

So, my life is a little more interesting, now that I am friends with an angel.